Dear confused student,
To tell you the truth, you are not the only confused one. I have been struggling to come to grips with my new reality of being an adult. There are huge choices for me to make; what college to go to, what career to pursue, who to keep close and who to push away, if I should even go to college.
Childhood appears to be over for us. Senior year seems to be more about the future then the present. Teachers tell us that we only need to plan the next step not the rest of our lives, but deep down we feel that planning the next step IS planning the rest of our lives. The colleges we go to we feel determine what jobs we will get. The majors we choose we feel determines our careers. People keep telling us that isn’t the way things work but we don’t listen, I don’t listen.
The stress of all this planning is intense and we have to let go of it; but how to let go when it just has to get done?! I have decided to strive to stop being reasonable, I am not going to go crazy, that’s not what I mean. I have been reasonable throughout this whole process and maybe it is not working as well as I had hoped. I think it is time for me to look at my passions, examine my heart and my dreams. I believe it is time for me to jump into an adventure that might seem crazy but I am peace with.
I still have my back up plan and maybe you should too. I continue to apply to scholarships and work hard in school but I know my plans might change. I am accepting that change and am excited for it! Maybe with the change will come the passion that I have been missing for far too long.
So my dear confused friend, we are in this together. Don’t feel alone in this fight towards the next phase in our lives. Feel excited and pumped for what ever craziness is about to happen!
Until next time,
-Denali
College Crazies 